The articles, the tweets I'm getting, the shit talking people are saying to me... I'm over it. I'll apologize in advance, I put everything on the table. The articles written about me, not true. &I'm hoping to put my version out there so I can stop being looked at as some asshole. Though "everyone may be over it" today, everyone also had their fun writing shit about me last night. So... I'm not writing shit, I'm writing my side. I understand people are going to hate it, some are going to appreciate it. I don't mind feedback - or questions, just no more harassment... please. - Cara
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Now, let's get down to why I actually left... Yes, Kail got her wisdom teeth out on Thursday, I was there with her Thursday night. I did not go out for hours using her car. I went to see some friends the night before and had left at 10:30pm, I got back around 11 because I got lost. (I'm not too firmiliar with that area). Thursday night I was there, but I had something important I needed to do on Friday. Whether everyone does - or does not know I was in rehab in February, which I chose to go to. Yes, my mom gave me the option, and yes I made the phone call and set the date as too when I was going to go. I checked myself into rehab, not for drugs, but for the mental health aspect of it. I was going through a bad breakup, dealing with my biological father who recently came into my life and caused nothing but problems, my ex's family, my aunt and uncle that yes did try to help - but were also not at the same time. Plus my family at home, everything was a disaster and I just could not deal with it anymore. I needed help, and therefore I got it. So, yes I was in rehab in February (the rest is a long story, lol). So, the women that was my counselor in the rehab I went too in Jersey had called me the week before asking me if I could meet her Friday morning because she was having two clients come in and wanted me to speak to them. So of course I'm going to offer to do my best because I had that when I went there. So, I met up with her... I did NOT plan on being gone all day. But Thursday after Jordan dropped her off from her wisdom teeth I asked him "Is she going to be okay to be alone tomorrow for a few hours?" He said "Yes, she will be fine and I'll come over after work to check on her." Like I said, I did not plan on being gone all day but the chain of events that happened I ended up getting back at 6pm where she was leaving with Jordan. That week, she is correct I was slacking on my "chores". But the previous 5 weeks that I was there I did absolutely everything I could. I cleaned the house from top to bottom, did the dishes, did everything I could every single day while she was at work or school &I also watched Isaac when she needed me too.
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The whole problem here was that her friend had called and told me that she had an old iPhone that she would send me if I wanted it. So, finally the package had come in on Friday while I was out. Apparently her friend also sent me a bracelet. So, when I got home I looked around saw a bracelet on the printer, saw Isaac's stuff in the kitchen and thought to myself "this girl really took this box with her...." So I texted her, asking if she had taken the box with her. When she said yes, I asked why her response was "I wasn't too thrilled that you left me here alone all day and left me with a sink of dishes to do." I never said I wouldn't do the dishes when I got home, because that's what I was planning on doing. Honest, I was. I knew that they had been sitting there and didn't expect her to do them because of her teeth, I was more than willing to help out when I got back. But seeing my counselor and helping when needed is important to me. &I'm sorry that she couldn't understand that. But, that just sent me over the edge. Yes, I was upset - I felt as if she was treating me like I was a child. Like she was grounding me for not doing my "chores." But I had other things to do that day, that were important. I also felt like she was trying to tell me that I wasn't doing enough for her, when I honestly had tried to do everything I could.
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So, that night I had asked her when she would be back the next day and she had told me that she would be back when she woke up - because I wanted to talk to her about everything. (Because apparently she can only call the shots when she's upset or somethings bothering her, but when it came to me trying to air things out and wanting to clear the air... it wasn't important.) She decided to be gone all day long. Fine, I understand perhaps you're trying to get back at me for having something to do the day before. So, I texted her asked when she would be back - and I had recieved no answer. So, seeing the type of person I am if I would have sat around the house all day (Yes, after I cleaned) I would have absolutely freaked out on her. So, me trying to make the better desicion I decided to leave for the night. Sunday (yesterday) I texted her and told her that I would be back either that night or the next day and she told me "Don't even come back, it's a waste of time. Bye." To me that means 'you gotta go.' So, I asked when I could get my things and she just wanted the car back. So, I told her I would come bring the car, in exchange to pick up my things and I would just go back home then. Because I was not going to deal with a "diva" attitude as if she can tell me when it's okay for me to get my things. I'm not going to have her treat me like she treats everybody else. I have known Kail before all of this "teen mom" stuff, to me she's a regular person who I've known since I was 10 years old. So as I'm on my way to get my things she starts telling me how I can drop the car off and leave and not get my stuff - Uh, noooo! No way. So, then she starts to throw family things at me saying how ungreatful I am, and "Now I understand why your dad doesn't want you in the house. Uggh I cannot stand you." That is where I draw the line. So, yes, after I got my stuff I won't even lie. I texted her - because she had two friends, and Jordan over there just sitting watching me bring my stuff out of the house. I texted her when I left, and I did go to town with it. In response she just keeps going on about how my parents FORCED me to go to rehab because they didn't want me in the house, and so on and so forth. I'm not going to get into it. You don't cross me and bring up my past and my family. Because I did not do that to her, then bring up how she has a kid, she's going to school, and she's working accomplishing more than I am.
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That is fine, I am proud of her doing what she needs to do for herself and her son. I was thankful that she let me go there, and stay there, and perhaps to a certain extent I wasn't really pushing the pavement to get a job, I was making phone calls, e-mailing places I saw were hiring and put in 5 applications. I honestly did have the intentions to get a job I wasn't just trying to loaf there doing nothing. I was cleaning, watching Isaac when needed, going to the store, doing what I needed to do for her to make things okay around the house. Apparently my best wasn't enough for her. I might be 19 living at home, now, without a job, a car, or school, and maybe I don't have my life together or have a plan as to where I want to be or exactly what I want to do. For me, I know that I want to be back in Florida. So since I am back home now, in talking to my mom I had agreed to her that I will get a job here, (not just say I will... actually do it) I will enroll in a class or two, and start saving up so that I can go to Florida again. I don't need to be judged for things I'm not doing, I don't need to be judged on my past and past mistakes I have made. Because I'm not judging anyone else. I accept everyone for who they are, and what they bring to the table. Not what they offer, not what they'll do, not how much money they have - none of that. I know what it's like to have no one, to have nothing, I had to work my ass off in treatment centers for 5 months to get my head on straight, and in a sense sometimes I still need help because I start to lose focus and motivation... and I'm sure that multiple teens go through that. In fact, I know I am not alone with that. Kail definitely pushed my limits, and yes it had ruined our friendship because she wanted to act like a 10 year old again, but then trying to pull the mature card and it just doesn't work. It didn't work, because she has very, very poor communication skills.
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I guess I also need to mention that 1. I didn't "steal" anything of Kail's. She had given me clothes that she didn't wear anymore. I didn't steal anything, her jeans that are missing - wouldn't even fit me. I am 2 pant sizes bigger than she is. 2. I did not use her new make up, I used her new mascara once but I asked. 3. "Oh poor Kail paying the bills on her own, and the 'Nanny' not doing her part." - Maybe you should ask who really is paying her bills, though she has the intentions to pay someone back, stop acting like she's this poor helpless teen parent just because of what you see on TV. What you see on TV isn't the whole story, isn't the whole truth. It's what they piece together. I don't want to be a bitch, I don't want to be the asshole.... but Kail isn't some helpless victim here. She gets whatever she wants, she does whatever she wants, I see how hard she works for the things she has, and I'm not saying that she doesn't deserve it. But I don't need someone trash talking me trying to make me out to be an asshole. Sorry everyone, I'm not an asshole!
Sorry this is so long, lol, there was a lot that needed to be said.
I totally agree with you! I think SHE wants people to bow down to her b/c she was on some reality tv show, when in reality you're the one that has known her the longest before the show came on and the show documented her being PREGNANT at a young age. She knew when she allowed you to move in, that you had no job and was moving to a new town. If she was your true friend she wouldn't get so mad over stupid chores, I am sure she doesn't live spick and span. She has no room to talk about your family, from what everyone saw on the show, she has a fucked up relationship with her father, she has a mother that is a drug addict, she was living with her bfs family, was with Jordan while Jo's family put a roof over her head, paid for her to have water,electricity.Kail is NOT a victim..Kail is NOBODY.
ReplyDeleteAnd Kail I got allll 4 of my wisdom teeth surgically cut out, I was home by myself 8 hours a day while my mother went to work..I WAS JUST FINE! I cleaned after myself, wiped my own ass and fed myself soup/jello/pudding and gave myself meds,put ur big girl panties on KAIL!
Wow. Thanks for writing this. Mtv makes some of the girls (Kailyn, Maci, Leah) look like angels, and we never get the whole story. It's nice to see the other side. I'm sorry people have been rude to you. That isn't fair.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to see your side of the story. This was well written. for her to go all diva on someone who she has known that long proves that tv has gone to her head. sigh. prayers going out to you girlie!
ReplyDeleteSadly not many people will see this because Heather Clouse has already deemed you a bad person. Kail needs to grow up and learn that she will not be "famous" forever. She will have a year or two of fame and then the flame will burn out. But I hope you don't take the things people say to heart, they are ignorant and cannot think for themselves.
ReplyDeletethere aren't many folks that listen to Heather anymore and those that do are sheep. Anyone with half a brain will want to get both sides to any story before deciding for themselves what they think. I don't know who did what or who said what - but honestly - none of that should matter. Cara and Kailyn were friends for years and this friendship and argument is between the two of them. People need to attempt to respect their privacy and both Cara and Kailyn need to keep their disagreements between the two of them and not blast it all over the internet. I don't know who posted what first and I really don't care - but hopefully the two of them can deal with it between the two of them and be adults about it. :) Best of luck to you Cara - I'm sure this isn't an easy position to be in and I'm hopefully you can come out of this with your head held high. You've been respectful so far and I am sure you'll continue to be.
ReplyDeleteYour not fooling anybody...You really know how to boast your self-esteem, don't you? Please, Karma is a bitch, Cara..you know this better than anybody. Here's a peice of advise: stop living in Kail's spotlight and start living your own life.
ReplyDeleteFirst off Heather just takes everyone's tweets and re writes them to sound better. Second of all maybe kail can wipe her own ass instead of having people do shit for her. She works and goes to school and has a kid. So what?? alot of people do and they clean up their own house. Basically kail wants someone to be her bitch and maybe that's Jordan.
ReplyDeleteCara, I think you so full of shit. Actively searching for a job requires a little more effort then putting 5 applications in 5 weeks. You weren't really trying to find a job, you were just saying you wanted to find a job. ( "Not just say I will... actually do it" ) Sounds like this has been your m.o. for quite a while. I think Kail saw through your empty promises and was fed up with your lazy ass.
ReplyDelete@Trueefact - I'm not the one trying to fool anybody. I openly admitted my mistakes, and did say what I did wrong on my part. I'm not trying to boost my self-esteem; my self-esteem wasn't hurt. Lol. Karma is a bitch, but I'm not the one that's going to be served it in the end. It's cool. I'm not living in anyone's spotlight. 15 minutes of fame are going to die out soon, real quick.
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@Bell - Yes, actively searching for a job does require more effort than I was able to give. Kail did willing give me a car of hers that she had used while in transition to get a new car. When we picked it up it was on straight E for gas. Knowing that I had no money to put gas in the tank, I wasn't able to get to the places to put applications in. As soon as my mom put gas in my tank for me to get out there and put applications in, that was the first thing I did. Yes, "Not just say I will... actually do it" has been my problem for a while. I have been in a very unstable living situation for a while. I have been in and out of rehabs, in and out of my parents house, I have been going place to place and that's my own fault. I know what I need to do for myself - and now that I am back home, I have tried other things and everything I have tried that I thought was right, since it was actually wrong. I plan on keeping my ass home, and doing work where I can. The only empty promises that were they're were her own, not mine. I did what I needed to do, and promised to do. Sorry - but I didn't sign up to be the Nanny, and promised I would help where help was needed. I admitted to "slacking on my 'chores'" I don't know what more you want from me.
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Everyone else, thank you for the positive feedback! Like I said, I'm not trying to bash anybody &I am fully aware that not everybody is going to want to hear what I have to say... but that is okay! I completely understand.
- Cara!
I want you to stop making excuses, actually take responsibility for your actions and stop playing the victim. Admit you are lazy and really didn't keep up your end of the deal. You say the first chance you got money to fill the gas tank, you started putting in applications for jobs. You filled out 5 measly applications. That can be done in one day in a matter of hours. Doesn't really sound like you were seriously trying to find a job. You may have fooled yourself into thinking you were looking, but you are not fooling me. Why didn't you try applying online? Or take the bus? There are so many people in this country who are not as fortunate as you and are not given cars to use, yet they still manage to find jobs and get to work daily? Why can't you? When you really want something, you find a way to make it happen. This plus the fact that you were " slacking on your chores" is not "doing what you needed to do and promised to do." Why can't you see that? Seems like the longer you stayed with Kail, the more you took advantage by doing less and less to earn your keep.
ReplyDeleteCara while I sympathize with the fact that you have not had the most stable life, it is not an excuse for lazy behavior. Kail was basically trying to help you with a fresh start in a new city. All you had to do was help out around the house and find a job, but you found every excuse in the book not to what you had promised. You really need to do some soul searching to figure out why you are uncapable of being a responsible adult. Things are not going to be handed to you like you seem to expect. You are not owed anything, my dear.
You see, you have been served by karma..... over and over again. That's the thing. When will you ever learn? I agree with "Unknown" I sympathize for you. You need to get you shit together...and not publicly I might add. Honestly, who do you think you are? Not anything close to a celebrity ..why TRY and act like one. You have a lot of growing up to do. You can consciously sit here and act like what you’re doing is perfectly ok. That there is nothing wrong with the way your living life. How many times are you going to fall down until you stop refusing to stand back up again…so you ex left you over a year ago, so what?..it happens to almost everyone at least once. So you went to rehab for narcotics and emotional stress, take that as a learning experience. You burnt every bridge you’ve every crossed and lost a lot of friends along the way. Grow up and start taking reasonability for yourself and for your actions. Stop desperately looking for the next best thing and start living with what you have. As you could probably guess, I’m not a fan, Cara, more like a long lost friend. I’m done watching you make a fool of yourself. It’s getting beyond pathetic.
ReplyDeleteU guys all need to chill out. She is young. as far as acting like a celebrity LOL ....all the teens moms think they are celebrities and they act like it...are u hitching at them for that???? Probably not...cars is not owed anythinf I agree...but it seems like kail thinks tht she is owed something..
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