Enough is enough.

I don't understand how much it's going to take that I am NOT trying to be a celebrity. The purpose of me writing this is because I didn't appreciate Heather's BS articles about me, that weren't true. I wrote this because I have 50,000 people asking me what happened - so I figured it'd be fair to have what happened out there not just bullshit.

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I don't want sympathy, I just wanted people to know what happened. Who is anyone to sit here and judge my life? No one. I do not act like a celebrity and damn sure don't want to be one. I see what it has done to people, and that's not me. All the Teen Mom's act like their somebody - but they seem to forget before MTV came around they were no body. They were young girls who got pregnant, which happens everyday. They're sob stories are out there for people to try and relate and see that it is possible. But, guess what? If it wasn't for MTV half of these girls wouldn't have it as nice as they do. That's for damn sure. Some of them seem to forget who was there all along the way - and focus on the people that "just so happened" to come into their life after they were on TV &quickly throw away friends that have been there, and helped them along the way. I am not owed anything - from anyone. I just wanted peace of mind to get my side out there, and that was it.
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I've been knocked down several times, &I continue to stand and do something different. So what? I'm going on with my life, I'm not sitting here crying about my life. What's wrong with the way I'm living my life? I'm making my own choices, I'm making mistakes, I'm growing up and I'm moving along. I don't have a job? I don't go to school? So that makes me a nobody. How could I have kept a job if I keep changing my mind - that's my fault and I understand that.
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I have lost a lot of friends, but apparently they weren't my real friends to begin with then anyway because everyone fucks up. &If you know me so well unknown9933, why don't you come to me personally? Because I fucked up our friendship years ago? Probably. Because I did something - probably. Because I made mistakes and I'm fucking human? - Probably. &That's pathetic.
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Everyone heals differently, everyone moves at their own pace as long as you don't stop moving forward with your life I don't see what's wrong with taking your time and moving at your own pace. I fucked up a lot within the past two years, I spent 5 months in rehab getting my fucking head on straight because there is NO WAY I could have functioned anymore with the emotional state I was in. Maybe some people can be like "Oh, that's life" & move on. I obviously couldn't. People have expectations for me, that I couldn't have reached at the time and were there to support me going to rehab and getting help 100% of the way. I'm a sensitive person &take everything to heart - I care too much. Everyone wants to freak out on me and be like "get over it, get over it, get over it." But does anyone realize that Kail has been in my life since I was 10? After she moved yeah we would go time, and time again without talking but when we got back together it was like no time has passed. Guess what, I don't have that anymore. Who's to blame? I'm not going to blame myself for everything, because she's exchanged some hurtful words to me &wants to act like she's somebody behind her lawyers, and MTV, and whatever else. K? That's not the Kail I know - she can take this as shit talking. And that's fine, to go so far to hurt someone who has helped you along the way... that ruins friendships. Yeah, I said things that were hurtful too - we both did. No one is a Saint here. No one is owed anything, I don't owe Kail anything. She doesn't owe me a damn thing.
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It hurts, okay? Sorry that I'm hurting and no one can seem to fucking understand that. I am so done trying to explain myself when people just want to be delusional and continually attack me. I'm not celebrity, I'm not putting my life out there to be judged - but people do it anyway. As if all of your lives are so great, and if they are congrats - but I bet you've been through hard times, and I bet you're all older than 19 and have your lives figured out. Sorry I'm not there yet, and sorry my best isn't good enough for anyone else.
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"Oh Cara's being a baby, she's trying to get attention. She just wants to be famous, she wants people to feel sorry for her." - If you think that... get a fucking life.
Oh, wait... am I not aloud to be angry and write about it? Haaaaa, no. I can do whatever I want, just like anyone else can. &If you're going to talk shit about how I feel, it'll just get deleted so just don't.